NERMINA NUHODZIC / Childhood

Sometimes I ask myself if it was really meant to be this way. What happened to the beautiful city that I have in my childhood memories? It’s hard to believe that a war can change everything, even the hearts of people. I miss the protection that I remember. Where have the good old times gone? If I think about all this, I feel like an adult. My whole generation seems to be hopeless and I ask myself, why did all those senseless things happen?

History repeats itself. Somehow wars always begin here, but actually they have never stopped. We live in so-called peace, but it doesn’t really exist. It’s been raining for a long time but the rainbow hasn’t shown up… I remember that I was a child who grew up with a lot of emotions around and no matter if they were sad or happy they could never make me cry. I was forced to take life as it came and this made me to be the kind of person that I am today. I’m young but I don’t feel that way because I lost my childhood. I had to grow up and take care of myself, nobody asked me about my feelings. Maybe it’s better that this happened. Nothing can really surprise me, it can’t get worse that it was then.

I am not cold or emotionless or ignorant, I just keep everything closed deep in a corner of my soul. Someday it will explode and everything will come out but there is a lot of time left ‘till then. Take care of your childhood; those days are more precious to remember than anything else in your life. Be sure you enjoy every moment that you have; otherwise you’ve lost a precious pearl that you’ll never find again. I lost a lot of those moments. They were stolen from me.

Maybe there is someone living in another part of the world, maybe this person is just like you and is looking for you just as you are looking for your soul mate… somehow the whole world is a small village and we all know each other even if we’ve not met yet. Just look into the eyes of people, maybe you will meet them on the street, on the bus or somewhere else. Do you see how they feel, imagine that they suffer and laugh just like you? Does it matter if they are black or white or if they have dark hair? Aren‘t we all human beings, created to be together and share this planet? The future can only change if we’re all ready to close our eyes and just smile. You don’t have to be someone important to change something in this world. Just share a good moment, share your smile and you’ll change the heart of somebody. Maybe you won’t even notice it.